Over and Over Again...

Bukan selalu, bukan sekali..

Not once…not at all…

Am I making sense? Not really, just ramblings of a female mind trying to find meaning to everyday life. It’s difficult to neither comprehend, nor accept the fact that it life is just unpredictable. Having to repeat the same things over and over again, and waiting for a different result each time. I find it stressful to wait for an answer to something that I’ve routinely repeated over and over again…

Over and over again…

But there is one thing that I’ve yet to find a chore to repeat. A routine that I willingly let myself venture into regardless of risks that may or may not arise. There is one thing that I don’t mind letting myself accept its unpredictability-ness..if there exist such a word…

The one thing that I don’t mind doing…over and over again…

Is falling in love…

And I will let myself fall in love as many times as life lets me…

Even if it means falling in love with the same person…

Over and over again…

siti

I’ve never had the experience of falling in love with the same person more than once. Usually it’s the initial attraction that leads me to love and later, the feeling just slowly lingers without purpose or meaning. With time, the feeling seems to spread out to another person..and then another…and then another..

I’ve heard of stories from others, especially elders who managed to maintain a marriage for many, many years. Some have been married for more than 20 years and are still happy with each other. I once asked them how they managed to be so happy in a marriage, and the answer was almost always the same...

they learned to love each other and each time they saw a new personality with their spouse, they learn to love it…

and ended up falling in love with it…

so for the years they were together, the fell in love with each other..over and over again…
I’ve always wanted to know how it feels like to fall in love with the same person…over and over again…

Alhamdullilah..now i know what it feels like :)