It’s difficult to understand where you stand in the world. To realize your importance in the universe...and coming to terms that there are none. What I feel is too significant to reflect in words. It’s too deep for me to describe...it is just an intuitive response to the vibration that the world is sending to me.
Some may think that what I write and what I feel is insignificant in every way. No one should be thinking about a person's significance in the world. All us humans need to worry about is our significance in our own lives and the lives that are affected by us. I know I’m putting too much burden on shoulders that were never meant to carry such weight. But I just can't help myself....
I realize that my friends find me stubborn, unreliable sometimes, selfish, arrogant even righteous. I understand I may not be the best person to choose for a “happy” friendship but I know I am loyal. Never have I made negative comments about my friends behind their backs…and even if I did they would know about it. I am a person who speaks my mind and if I find something that I need to say out loud…I will.
I know I’m not perfect. I don’t follow the groove of others as easily as some people do. I’m not a person who can easily say yes to situations that I don’t agree with. And people hate me for that. Even my friends find it difficult to deal with that part of me. What I ask is not to agree with my opinions…just be honest with yours. I’ve went through too many ups and downs in my life to deal with dishonesty. It’s a crushing feeling that no one seems to understand…to find out that someone you truly trust and you’ve protect, go behind your back to “discuss” about you.
This is by far the loneliest moment in my life….
And that’s my honest truth…
Some may think that what I write and what I feel is insignificant in every way. No one should be thinking about a person's significance in the world. All us humans need to worry about is our significance in our own lives and the lives that are affected by us. I know I’m putting too much burden on shoulders that were never meant to carry such weight. But I just can't help myself....
I realize that my friends find me stubborn, unreliable sometimes, selfish, arrogant even righteous. I understand I may not be the best person to choose for a “happy” friendship but I know I am loyal. Never have I made negative comments about my friends behind their backs…and even if I did they would know about it. I am a person who speaks my mind and if I find something that I need to say out loud…I will.
I know I’m not perfect. I don’t follow the groove of others as easily as some people do. I’m not a person who can easily say yes to situations that I don’t agree with. And people hate me for that. Even my friends find it difficult to deal with that part of me. What I ask is not to agree with my opinions…just be honest with yours. I’ve went through too many ups and downs in my life to deal with dishonesty. It’s a crushing feeling that no one seems to understand…to find out that someone you truly trust and you’ve protect, go behind your back to “discuss” about you.
This is by far the loneliest moment in my life….
And that’s my honest truth…
